“…I’m moving to Sydney in the next few weeks.”
I should be getting used to it by now. It’s part of growing up right? Everyone has their own dreams and desire, people move on and life goes on.
But still, I can’t help but feel sad, not that I cry or show it to the person. I’m just not keen on the idea that slowly we won’t be part of each other’s lives anymore. We can jump on a call and all that but it won’t be the same.
Going back to my earlier years, you'll see why goodbye isn’t my thing. I stayed in the same school from kindergarten to high school so a hundred of us grew up together. The first time I truly said farewell was just before flying to Melbourne for university.
This guy taught me a lot. Coming from a completely different background, I would never thought I’d be close with him. Yet, all those differences helped me to become someone who understands more and judge less.
His sudden departure taught me that because of goodbye, appreciating is easier, memories more precious and time more finite.
We Are Back!
I’m back in office! Great timing, as WFH started to make me feel unmotivated as the job just became a series of tasks that I have to do. My role doesn’t require me to interact with others as often so finally seeing and talking to other people felt like high school all over again. This time, I get paid to learn while occasionally getting free food!
Also, WFO also stops me from overeating.
Reason 1: grabbing snacks every 30 mins makes me look unproductive.
Reason 2: the crunching noises will push the remote working narrative even more, and I’m not ready for it.
Also..
Bricking shots ✅
Airballing three pointers ✅
Missing a point blank lay up ✅
Basketball is back after 3 months of hiatus.
What’s next?
A few months before I finish my bachelor’s degree (December 2020), I was already thinking about what’s next. “What job should I go for?” “Do I even want to work full time?” “Where should I work?” “Do I want to go back to Indo?”
March this year, I started Bible college and managed to secure an internship.
In July, I got offered a temporary full time job that ends in January 2022. I deferred college and went on to take the role (PR and Comms).
Without realizing it, I’ve spent 6 months in this job already and my contract is ending in a few weeks. Again, I find myself thinking about what I should do next.
my thought process
I enjoy my workplace and still have plenty of room to grow. Should I go for another role in the company? Should I go all in on my toy store? Both paths are intriguing, and I know that I’ll learn lots either way.
And, when should I do the once in a lifetime thing of travelling for months? Now, when nothing is holding me back? Later, when I’ve established my career a bit more? But will it be harder to let go?
But also, with every decision made I can’t help but think about whether I really wanna do it, I only like the idea of doing it or worse, I’m externally motivated.
Possibilities are exciting, but sometimes paralyzing too.